My Self- Reflection (Week 6)

     This is the first week in the year 2014. Everything seems like full of hopes. However, the assignments that have not finished becomes my nightmare in the new year. While everyone is celebrating for the new year, I am still struggle for the assignments. It is an unbearable experience for me. I do not even know how to start with it. I know the disadvantages of procrastination, but the laziness keeps pestering me. Therefore, I make up my mind today, on the 5th January of 2014, I want to change!

     The first thing I need to to is to give my soul a bath. I want to wash off the past, both the joyful and the  sorrowful ones. We always emphasize on the importance of the memorize skills and neglect about the importance of forgetting skills. When the burdens of the past are getting heavier and heavier, we cannot even move a single step anymore. At the moment, I think I need to put down the burdens and give myself a chance to reborn. I know I cannot make a progress for so long time because I cannot put down the past. However, I am different from the past, I am brave now! I have the courage to put down the past! I want to find back my happiness!

     The second thing I need to do is to accept. No matter what the weaknesses I have, I accept it unconditionally, and I try my best to love myself more. I accept what I am now, I accept the decision that I have made, I accept the failures, I accept everything that is being arranged by the God. I know everything that comes into my life has their own reasons. I learn not to regret for the past and learn to accept what I have now. I learn to cherish them. As the saying goes, "it's useless to cry over a spilt milk"!

     The third thing that I need to do is just be myself. I was too care about the others' opinions in the past. I was afraid to offend anybody. I accepted all of their opinions and changed myself according to their suggestions. Until now, I cannot even recognize me anymore! Where am I? Is that me? I could not even recognize me in a mirror! I knew, I had lost myself in the others' opinions. Therefore, from now on, I want to just be myself! I will accept any constructive opinions but it does not mean I will change it! I do not want to live in others' opinions anymore! I want to learn how to build myself up! I am who I am! 

     In the year 2014, I choose to change! I choose to give my life a chance to restart. I choose to put down the past, accept myself, love myself, my family and my friends more, and just be myself! I am confidence in myself, I know, I can do it! I believe in myself, just as my family believe me! With their full supports, I know I manage to carry on my dream! I know, I will success and I can be successful!