My Self-Reflection (Week 9)

         I was so busy in this week because I am going to celebrate Chinese New Year in the coming week. I tried to complete the tasks given by the lecturer so that I would not be burdened with the work during Chinese New Year. The most annoying thing was that once I completed the tasks given, then a more difficult task was given before I went back to my hometown to celebrate Chinese New Year. I chose to ignore that task and I intended to do it in the last.

            I felt happy and contented when I worked with my course mate, Amee to do our business homepage. I enjoyed working with her and our business homepage had been created easily. She is the one who is willing to listen to other’s opinion and productive. Once we had discussed about the topic for our business homepage, we worked hand-in-hand to complete it. Our business homepage was completely done during the time given. It was a great experience to work with her and I hoped that we could have more chances to work together!

           Before going back to my hometown, there was a mid-term test for the entrepreneurship course. I had tried to study the lecture’s note one day before but I was still worried about the question that would be come out. I thought that I could answer it in half an hour time and I could go back early to my hometown. I was wrong because the questions given were mostly in subjective and essay forms which require me to spend a longer time to complete it. My intention to go back early was destroyed!  The questions given require us to apply the theory that we had learned in the lecture and I was not sure whether I had answered them correctly or not. It was filled with a lot of uncertain. I prayed for myself to get a good result for this mid-term test. 

My Self-Reflection (Week 8)

       Although there are two public holidays in this week, I am still busy in this week. The assignments seem like never end to me. When you have done an assignment, a new assignment will be assigned to us. In fact, I have planned some activities for this weekend a long time ago. Therefore, the assignment has become my heavy burden. However, I am sure I will not postpone my schedule. I do not like anything that are not in my plan. For me, everything must be go on according to plan. It will not reduce my determination to carry on my plan.

       I believe in myself. I believe that I can finish all the assignments after I have coming back from my trip. I know, I can do it. I do not mind how the others look at me, as long as I know, I can finish it. I am confidence in myself. I know myself better than all of you. Therefore, do not compare you with me. Every one is different. You will be in trouble when you compare others to yourself. This is my advice for you.

      

       Sometimes, I can't to look through a person properly. I feel like an idiot when I know the truth. Initially, I look at the matter in a positive way. After I have a twice thinking, I get what she means finally. I am tired with the truth. How I wish I can stop growing up! There are too many facts I do not want to accept. I try to stand from other's point of view to look into that matter, but other is not! She does not know how I feel. I am still young, I do not know her game. I am not going to play with her. 

My Self-Reflection (Week 7)

            This week I am still busy with a lot of assignments. The works seem like never end for me. I am flooded with all kinds of works that I have to do. However, I still manage to find my time to read some books which make me feel inspiring.

            The first book that I have read is a motivational book. The title of the book is “The Message from a Master”. The book is just like the books with the names “Attraction law” and “Secret”. It has stated the ways to get what you desire. Although I have just read the first and second chapter of the book, I have witnessed some of the effects that work on me. It is the first time I feel so great for my life. If you have time to read on it, you may know what I mean.

            The second book that I have read is a Mandarin book which is regarding on the love. The writer interprets some of the situations that have happened between couples and asks the readers to make a consideration. It is not easy for a man and a woman to be in love. There are so many things that have to take into account. They have to learn to be patient and caring for each other. If any one of them is selfish, then the other part can easily been hurt. I think that I can use the examples and lessons in the book as my references to manage my relationship.

               I enjoy reading the books because it can enrich my life and I can find something new to me in the books. Therefore, no matter how busy I am, I will try to squeeze the time to read the books.

My Self- Reflection (Week 6)

     This is the first week in the year 2014. Everything seems like full of hopes. However, the assignments that have not finished becomes my nightmare in the new year. While everyone is celebrating for the new year, I am still struggle for the assignments. It is an unbearable experience for me. I do not even know how to start with it. I know the disadvantages of procrastination, but the laziness keeps pestering me. Therefore, I make up my mind today, on the 5th January of 2014, I want to change!

     The first thing I need to to is to give my soul a bath. I want to wash off the past, both the joyful and the  sorrowful ones. We always emphasize on the importance of the memorize skills and neglect about the importance of forgetting skills. When the burdens of the past are getting heavier and heavier, we cannot even move a single step anymore. At the moment, I think I need to put down the burdens and give myself a chance to reborn. I know I cannot make a progress for so long time because I cannot put down the past. However, I am different from the past, I am brave now! I have the courage to put down the past! I want to find back my happiness!

     The second thing I need to do is to accept. No matter what the weaknesses I have, I accept it unconditionally, and I try my best to love myself more. I accept what I am now, I accept the decision that I have made, I accept the failures, I accept everything that is being arranged by the God. I know everything that comes into my life has their own reasons. I learn not to regret for the past and learn to accept what I have now. I learn to cherish them. As the saying goes, "it's useless to cry over a spilt milk"!

     The third thing that I need to do is just be myself. I was too care about the others' opinions in the past. I was afraid to offend anybody. I accepted all of their opinions and changed myself according to their suggestions. Until now, I cannot even recognize me anymore! Where am I? Is that me? I could not even recognize me in a mirror! I knew, I had lost myself in the others' opinions. Therefore, from now on, I want to just be myself! I will accept any constructive opinions but it does not mean I will change it! I do not want to live in others' opinions anymore! I want to learn how to build myself up! I am who I am! 

     In the year 2014, I choose to change! I choose to give my life a chance to restart. I choose to put down the past, accept myself, love myself, my family and my friends more, and just be myself! I am confidence in myself, I know, I can do it! I believe in myself, just as my family believe me! With their full supports, I know I manage to carry on my dream! I know, I will success and I can be successful!