Self-reflection (Week 13)

           This week was so busy for us. This was because all of the assignments should be done in this week. The time in this week seemed no enough for all of us. We had to do the Karaoke video, the final editing on the review and report, and the last one but the most important one was the informative website which we had done it earlier.

            I would like to highlight on the case when one of our lecturer told us not to go back during the study week. She said she was so busy to attend all sorts of meetings and we could understand her but before she made the decision, I supposed she should consult all of us because some of us may have other planning. In fact, even though we were present physically in Tanjong Malim during the study week, it would not promise that our souls would be present here also. At last, she compromised with us to finish the presentation during week fourteen. I hoped she will keep her promise.

            After doing so many editing for the review and reports assignment, I was entirely exhausted for the course. All I hoped was a clear instruction from our lecturer on what we were supposed to do. With full of puzzlement and confusion, my group had come up with a better assignment finally. When I reflected back the time during doing our assignment, I was so grateful to have them in my group. Otherwise, I could not manage to completely finish on time. I was too tired during that time to redo and redo again the assignment. Luckily, they had giving me with full mental support and physical support. I enjoyed working with them. Thank you very much!

Self-reflection (Week 12)

        In this week, our group had to present our business proposal for entrepreneurship course and submitted two assignments for the other courses. Although it was not my first time to make a presentation, I still felt nervous. My mind went blank when I made the presentation. What I could do for that time was just read out the contents of the slides. I hoped I could do it better next time. Yi Ting, I believed in you, you can do better!

            Other than the presentation, we were given another task for Computer and Writing course. Initially, we do not know the task given was for our last assignment, review and report. Therefore, we just followed the lecturer’s instructions and completely finished as teamwork. However, what we had done was not the one that the lecturer would like to see. Then, we worked together to redo our work. Luckily, all of us could still manage to find the time to solve the problems. I was so proud for our group which could work hand-in-hand all the time. I was so grateful to them. I could still remembered the time when we tried to finish the assignment in the middle night. Everyone was so dedicated for the work. I could feel the enthusiasm in us. From that moment onwards, I knew, they are irreplaceable in my heart.

            The other assignment was regarding on the APA style. Before doing this assignment, I must admit that I did not study much on APA style even though it was so important to do the reference for our assignment. There were so many details I lack of it and sometimes I might misunderstand the requirements for the assignment. After consulting the lecturer and my course mates, then I found out the way to work on it. I was thankful to my course mate who was willing to give a helping hand to me when I could not find the related books. I was glad to have the honour to be her friend! I was grateful to my lecturer who was always giving us her opinions and guidance to our assignment. Finally, the assignment was completely done.

            

My Self-Reflection (Week 11)

       On Monday, I had been complimented by our entrepreneurship's lecturer for scoring the highest in the mid-term test. I got the same result with another course mate. I did not expect that it was me who scored the highest. I was unsure when the lecturer asked us to guess who was the one scored the highest. I could still remembered I was so nervous during the time answering the questions. I was thankful for my lecturer for teaching us so well. However, there were some of my course mate who failed to do it well. Then, suggestions of having another test or assignment or both being proposed. It could be a good news for them but not for me, surely. Not matter what kinds of test or assignment would be given, I knew that I could do it well.

       On Tuesday, we had an unexpected task by our lecturer. Our lecturer had found out that most of us had not master English grammar. Therefore, we were giving a task to write a 350-400 words essay within three hours. The topic that we had to write was determine by ourselves. We had to search three books which were related to our topic from the library and read them on the spot so that we could produce a better writing. It was a new challenge for me. Luckily, I was manage to complete it in time and submitted it in a box outside our lecturer's office. 

      Our group had presented our business proposal for our Business English course on the Thursday. Although it was not my first time to make a presentation, I still felt like butteries in my stomach. I hoped that I had done nothing wrong during our presentation. Just before the business proposal presentation began, our lecturer had introduced us a senior who was going to Australia to further her study on that day. She got an offer of degree in University of South Australia. It was her who ignited our dreams to further our studies. We were grateful for her to share her experience for us to inspire us to go on further in our studies.

My Self-Reflection (Week 10)

             I was still in the mood in celebrating Chinese New Year in this week. I was lacked of energy to complete all the tasks and assignments that had been given by the lecturer. I disliked myself for being reluctant to fulfill my responsibility as a student to complete the tasks and assignments given. I tried to find other ways to regain my power to complete the works given. Luckily, my caring and loving family members always encourage me to do it. They understood my situation and chatted with me to enlighten me to complete my works.

            Even though I am studying in third semester already, the thought of giving up my study here and back to my warm house has never been ceased. Whenever I feel stressed, I will ask myself why I have to continue my study since I can get a job without this diploma. I was so weak in persuading myself to continue my study. My mother is my angel and she always comforts me when I faced with any obstacles. She is the one who motivates me all the times. I am thankful to her for bringing me to this beautiful world and teach me many things. If she does not support me all the times, I think I have already gave up my study.

             In this week, I had done my quiz in academic writing class. I was worried about my result because I was not confidence in answering the question. The questions given were all in the subjective form and essay form. The only thing that I could do was crossing my fingers and praying for a better result. Other than academic writing class, I had attended reading for aesthetic purposes class which was so boring to me. Maybe I was not interested in the novel “To Kill a Mocking Bird”, but I had tried my best to indulge myself in the class. I had no done the comparison between the novel and the movie yet. It was the most difficult work for me to do so I leave it to the last. I hoped that I could finished it early. 

My Self-Reflection (Week 9)

         I was so busy in this week because I am going to celebrate Chinese New Year in the coming week. I tried to complete the tasks given by the lecturer so that I would not be burdened with the work during Chinese New Year. The most annoying thing was that once I completed the tasks given, then a more difficult task was given before I went back to my hometown to celebrate Chinese New Year. I chose to ignore that task and I intended to do it in the last.

            I felt happy and contented when I worked with my course mate, Amee to do our business homepage. I enjoyed working with her and our business homepage had been created easily. She is the one who is willing to listen to other’s opinion and productive. Once we had discussed about the topic for our business homepage, we worked hand-in-hand to complete it. Our business homepage was completely done during the time given. It was a great experience to work with her and I hoped that we could have more chances to work together!

           Before going back to my hometown, there was a mid-term test for the entrepreneurship course. I had tried to study the lecture’s note one day before but I was still worried about the question that would be come out. I thought that I could answer it in half an hour time and I could go back early to my hometown. I was wrong because the questions given were mostly in subjective and essay forms which require me to spend a longer time to complete it. My intention to go back early was destroyed!  The questions given require us to apply the theory that we had learned in the lecture and I was not sure whether I had answered them correctly or not. It was filled with a lot of uncertain. I prayed for myself to get a good result for this mid-term test. 

My Self-Reflection (Week 8)

       Although there are two public holidays in this week, I am still busy in this week. The assignments seem like never end to me. When you have done an assignment, a new assignment will be assigned to us. In fact, I have planned some activities for this weekend a long time ago. Therefore, the assignment has become my heavy burden. However, I am sure I will not postpone my schedule. I do not like anything that are not in my plan. For me, everything must be go on according to plan. It will not reduce my determination to carry on my plan.

       I believe in myself. I believe that I can finish all the assignments after I have coming back from my trip. I know, I can do it. I do not mind how the others look at me, as long as I know, I can finish it. I am confidence in myself. I know myself better than all of you. Therefore, do not compare you with me. Every one is different. You will be in trouble when you compare others to yourself. This is my advice for you.

      

       Sometimes, I can't to look through a person properly. I feel like an idiot when I know the truth. Initially, I look at the matter in a positive way. After I have a twice thinking, I get what she means finally. I am tired with the truth. How I wish I can stop growing up! There are too many facts I do not want to accept. I try to stand from other's point of view to look into that matter, but other is not! She does not know how I feel. I am still young, I do not know her game. I am not going to play with her. 

My Self-Reflection (Week 7)

            This week I am still busy with a lot of assignments. The works seem like never end for me. I am flooded with all kinds of works that I have to do. However, I still manage to find my time to read some books which make me feel inspiring.

            The first book that I have read is a motivational book. The title of the book is “The Message from a Master”. The book is just like the books with the names “Attraction law” and “Secret”. It has stated the ways to get what you desire. Although I have just read the first and second chapter of the book, I have witnessed some of the effects that work on me. It is the first time I feel so great for my life. If you have time to read on it, you may know what I mean.

            The second book that I have read is a Mandarin book which is regarding on the love. The writer interprets some of the situations that have happened between couples and asks the readers to make a consideration. It is not easy for a man and a woman to be in love. There are so many things that have to take into account. They have to learn to be patient and caring for each other. If any one of them is selfish, then the other part can easily been hurt. I think that I can use the examples and lessons in the book as my references to manage my relationship.

               I enjoy reading the books because it can enrich my life and I can find something new to me in the books. Therefore, no matter how busy I am, I will try to squeeze the time to read the books.

My Self- Reflection (Week 6)

     This is the first week in the year 2014. Everything seems like full of hopes. However, the assignments that have not finished becomes my nightmare in the new year. While everyone is celebrating for the new year, I am still struggle for the assignments. It is an unbearable experience for me. I do not even know how to start with it. I know the disadvantages of procrastination, but the laziness keeps pestering me. Therefore, I make up my mind today, on the 5th January of 2014, I want to change!

     The first thing I need to to is to give my soul a bath. I want to wash off the past, both the joyful and the  sorrowful ones. We always emphasize on the importance of the memorize skills and neglect about the importance of forgetting skills. When the burdens of the past are getting heavier and heavier, we cannot even move a single step anymore. At the moment, I think I need to put down the burdens and give myself a chance to reborn. I know I cannot make a progress for so long time because I cannot put down the past. However, I am different from the past, I am brave now! I have the courage to put down the past! I want to find back my happiness!

     The second thing I need to do is to accept. No matter what the weaknesses I have, I accept it unconditionally, and I try my best to love myself more. I accept what I am now, I accept the decision that I have made, I accept the failures, I accept everything that is being arranged by the God. I know everything that comes into my life has their own reasons. I learn not to regret for the past and learn to accept what I have now. I learn to cherish them. As the saying goes, "it's useless to cry over a spilt milk"!

     The third thing that I need to do is just be myself. I was too care about the others' opinions in the past. I was afraid to offend anybody. I accepted all of their opinions and changed myself according to their suggestions. Until now, I cannot even recognize me anymore! Where am I? Is that me? I could not even recognize me in a mirror! I knew, I had lost myself in the others' opinions. Therefore, from now on, I want to just be myself! I will accept any constructive opinions but it does not mean I will change it! I do not want to live in others' opinions anymore! I want to learn how to build myself up! I am who I am! 

     In the year 2014, I choose to change! I choose to give my life a chance to restart. I choose to put down the past, accept myself, love myself, my family and my friends more, and just be myself! I am confidence in myself, I know, I can do it! I believe in myself, just as my family believe me! With their full supports, I know I manage to carry on my dream! I know, I will success and I can be successful!